now i know for a fact my ass aint perfect, theres so many times ive posted and screen shotted the nasty shit people say to me. sometimes i even feel the need to defend myself, because i think to myself. " these people can literally delete me, but instead sit there asses on facebook and write you messages" but i always delete them. because its not worth the energy, most of these messages i post are from people who are ethier FREE beggers, or just people i never met in my life. cause you know for a fact 90% of these people will never say anything to your face. most of the hate i get are actually from guys. which i NEVER thought would judge since most of them be jacking off to porn/ women right? yeah well.... as a cam model get use to it, you have to have thick skin. people are just mean in this world. but i always ask them this. you pay my bills? no do you know me? no ok then mind your FUCKING bussiness. if i wasnt doing this as a job i wouldnt have social media. but also you will have alot of supporters. block the haters, ingore them. " if there not paying your bills, who CARES" REMEBER THAT. you know how any times i had people write essays to me about how im doing is so wrong. and im so tired of defending myself its not even funny. at one point i almost gave up 4 months in.
ive been dealing with people calling me a slut since HIGHSCHOOL, even tho i wasnt a slut. but ive been called it for so many years why not become it and make money off it. lmao on some real shit. words be so powerful people dont even realize. which is why i always try not to judge others on what they do/ there look/ what they wear. it took me YEARS to forgive those people, and forgive myself for allowing all there energies to effect me and become a victim. dont let them affect you. dont become a victim. rise up. and pray for them, i know its easier said then done it will take time
but once you see that money come in, that apartment you always wanted, or house whatever it is. it will deff outweigh all the shit talkers. in a matter of 2 months of just not giving a fuck what people thought. i was able to get an apartment, have 3-6 month emergency funds, pay off all my credit card debt. and more.
NOW. i post my links on my personal for couple reasons.
1) i dont live in those states. and barley any are my actual friends.
2) they aint ever gonna see me again anyway.
3) yes my family knows. so that makes it 1150% ok not to give a fuck
for me personally i just dont give a fuck. these same people never supported me. you had this image in your head about me since highschool and when i was on drugs.. so why you sending me a 3 page essay how im better then this? im sober now. AND have my shit together. shouldnt u be happy about that? oh wait of course not. cause people like this are the same ones who find JUST SOMETHING TO BITCH ABOUT and your mad at me about some job that doesnt concern you or your family. people also ask me. arent u scared of ur future.
no im not, being in fear will only keep me down. i am finishing school and owning my own bussiness. so no im not scared of my future. nobody can tell me nothing. atleast im upfront what ive done in the past. when ms nancy over here beating her husband and kids and keeping it a hidden secret. most people who got shit to say, hide secrets of there own.
its amazing how much power us as humans have. do some research. start learning. instead of being in peoples bussiness's
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